Rejection

I was fired from TFP.

Well, that’s not the way my (ex)therapist would put it. More like, ”Hey, I’m worried that you’ll revert to some of your extreme target behaviors because you’re not ready to dig deeper. Go do more DBT. And join Marijuana Anonymous.”

I don’t think I was ready to go deep during my second round of DBT, hence the ramped up drug abuse, violence, and jail.

Here I am, the lonely, sad child again, hating to be alone, feeling rejected, and yet in an emotional tizzy when I’m with just about anyone.

I hope I can get better.